Oh dear, right now I just want to go back to the start. Seriously.
All my life I've been a bit of a perfectionist, although admittedly I've let MOST of that go since having children. I remember at school starting to write something and if the writing wasn't as neat as I liked I'd start over, and over, and over. I wasted a lot of paper and time trying to get those letters just so. It gives me an insight into a lot of my son's behaviours as I can tell he is the same and when things aren't going right for him he will beg to go back a few steps (which isn't always terribly convenient).
So it feels like life has been travelling at warp speed (and honestly we don't even get out that much) and anything that can pile up, has piled up (washing, paperwork, rss feeds) etc. I don't see an end in sight - probably because there just isn't one.
Our computer got a lurgy the other day, and whilst we've got the laptop to use, I haven't spent that much time online the past few days...I would have thought I could get more done around the place as a consequence - not so. When you need time, you can never seem to find enough of it it seems.
Anyway a clean slate would be nice. Everything back to the beginning. House clean, washing sorted and away, paperwork filed, cupboards decluttered and dinner cooked for at least a few days. As much as I hate to do it, I might also have to just mark the 200 or so posts on my google reader as read, because at least that's one thing where you really can just push a button and go back to the start. Oh if only life were that easy!
Monday, July 6, 2009
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I would dearly love the fairies to come in while I'm out one day and turn this world around so I can start afresh!
one day...
I really can't believe how often you write a post that totally describes me! I too used to start afresh with writing if it wasn't neat enough, or I made a mistake. It was enough to just cross it out and keep going. I had to start.all.over.again. Truth be told I'm still like that to an extent, but since I now have to buy the paper, I am more at home with crossing out and keeping going LOL I wish almost every day that I had some kind of pause button, so I could stop everything just long enough for me to get caught up and everything in order. I always think that if I can just get it all sorted, then I can stay on top of it instead of playing catch up all the time. Alas no pause button has shown itself so I continue to trip over life as it passes me by!
oh I hear you too..I always am thinking if only I could reverse time and get it to the clean part then I would maintain it..yeah..not likely in my case..I think I want to dream for housekeeper and cook instead..
This is why I go on cleaning and decluttering bends... It kind of feels like starting over... I think I may have had Bryn so I could start over, too, LOL, just kidding - sort of...
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