I just don't know what to do with myself...

So many days I have so much to do, but just not enough time. So many days I choose rest and relaxation (if it's even possible) over housework and chores. Many a time when I have a free few hours at night with kids sleeping soundly I don't know what to do with myself...it's as if I have *too* many interests...Do I knit? Do I read? Make some jewellery? Do I blog? Do I do all those fiddly paperwork type chores that I can't do with the kids around? Or do I just lie on the couch with no purpose at all and put on the idiot box? Someday soon I'd like to learn to sew, or get back to playing piano, but when? Oh and forget about exercise - no time!

Usually I do read in the bath for a bit, and then sit on the couch and knit whilst watching telly...most nights I'm so tired I know I should get an early night, but instead once I hit that point I'll relocate myself in front of the pc to do a bit of net surfing. I end up going to bed an hour too late and feeling crappy in the morning. It's not a great cycle by any stretch, but old habits and all that.

I'm thinking about trying to get a few hours work next year - and that will necessitate some reading, some catching up to ready my frazzled brain. I'm not sure where that's going to fit in to be honest. Many a time I think "somethings gotta give", but what? I'd love to be dedicated to one task or hobby, but which one? I'm not prepared to give anything up...infact I'm looking to add more!

I could afford to cut down my computer use - but it really is a great social outlet for me, and there are many people I would miss if I turned off all together.

What on earth did I do before kids? I was so boring and bored. I went to work full time, had a very clean house with up to date washing, played a bit of piano and did a bit of knitting, but I still lay around on the couch watching tv too late and wondering what I was doing with myself.

Hmmm reading back and pondering all this, I think it's fair to say screentime is my problem isn't it? Now, will I be brave enough to actually do something about it!